October 21st, 2013 (actual date written)
Too often, we try to gain a clear perspective before it is time.
That will make us crazy.
We do not always know why things are happening the way they are. We do not always know how a particular relationship will work out. We do not always understand the source of our feelings, why we’ve been led down a particular path, what is being worked out in us, what we are learning, why we needed to recycle, why we had to wait, why we needed to go through a time of discipline, or why a door closed. How our present circumstances will work into the larger scheme of events is not always clear to us. That is how it needs to be.
Perspective will come in retrospect.
We could strain for hours today for the meaning of something that may come in an instant next year.
Let it go. We can let go of our need to figure things out, to feel in control.
Now is the time to be. To feel. To go through it. To allow things to happen. To learn. To let whatever is being worked out in us take its course.
In hindsight, we will know. It will become clear. For today, being is enough. We have been told that all things shall work out for good in our life. We can trust that to happen, even if we cannot see the place today’s events will hold in the larger picture.
Today, I will let things happen without trying to figure everything out. If clarity is not available to me today, I will trust it to come later, in retrospect. I will put simple trust in the truth that all is well, events are unfolding as they should, and all will work out for good in my life—better than I can imagine.
The excerpt above is from Language of Letting Go by Melody Beattie. Over the past year it has been a battle learning and dealing with PCOS, along with friendships changing, and life taking different courses than I had planned. I wanted an answer to all my frustrations and worries immediately, but that was clearly not God's plan for me. Now, I sit here today and am thankful for all that I have learned. I am a stronger, more confident, sympathetic, and vulnerable woman than I was a year ago. Just like the author wrote above, it is in retrospect that we see all is well. I choose to count my blessings instead of fretting over what I cannot control.
What event in your life can you see that has turned out better than you can imagine?