A picture is worth a thousand words. It’s amazing how you can feel like a Goddess one second and then beat yourself up the next all because of a picture. Whether it's a bad angle, goofy pose, standing versus sitting, good lighting versus bad lighting, that one little change can wreak havoc on your mindset. I give you exhibit A to the right. Only 24 hours difference in the three pictures. One moment I'm scoffing at the way I look and the next I'm loving what I see. I share this to make a point and give us (very much myself) a reality check. Give yourself a break and let it be.
One of the favorite things of my career is the ability to train consistently, be on my feet, and stay active through out the day; however, the most challenging part of my career is feeling I need to look perfect. Ripped 6-pack abs, perfectly shaped legs and ass, slender arms, the list could go on.
Full disclosure and honesty. I can look in the mirror and take a picture and love every ounce of my being and within the same day feel the complete opposite. I have always struggled with keeping my mid-section lean. I don’t want to pull the card of “it’s my genetics,” but when everyone in your family battles with leanness in the mid-section regardless of how consistently they train and eat on point, then there is a little truth to it.
However, what I am very present to is loving my body and truly owning every beautiful imperfection. Kicking ass in the gym. Being able to hip thrust close to 300lb, squat heavy, sprint, run bleachers, rock out dips and push ups like a boss, and even do pull-ups. Choosing to not obsess over food. This use to be a BIG battle, but by the grace of God it has improved leaps and bounds every passing year, which now means I can enjoy shared french fries at Revelery brunch, the occasional chips and salsa, margaritas, mimosas, and truly doing LIFE with my friends and family the way I choose.
So how do I battle negative thoughts when they come blazing in hot?
- Say what I’m thinking and feeling out loud. This is not a whisper but a straight up bold statement.
- Own it. But, then I quickly have a reality check and state what is true. Even if it’s something I do want to improve upon, I switch to constructive criticism and remove self doubt and hate.
- Create a new story and one that is truth. This could be a paradigm shift if it is creating a new behavior, or it could be a simple reality check and realizing how completely irrational I am thinking and behaving.
By having a raw and honest conversation with my sis this week, it inspired me to share openly and with some rawness. I am so thankful I was able to do the steps above with her on the phone and get present to how blessed, healthy, vibrant, and beautiful my life truly is.